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I've almost forgotten I had this.

So, where to start...the fact that I'm done high school and moving on means that what just passed doesn't matter. It's time for a fresh start, not because i need one but because every now and then we need to change our bedsheets.

I have been here for 11 years. Eleven years where I have grown up into the person I am today. As I grew older, I started to realize that although I have a nice life here, this is not my home. Home is where you feel a spiritual belonging to the people around you and to your mundane actions. This year brought a total understanding of this feeling. "I wake to sleep and take my waking slow...I learn by going where I have to go". I need to get out of this cycle. I need an injection to my life, perhaps I can then find a new meaning, an improved one. I feel I have exhausted all my resources here.

Now that I don't need to question this place anymore, I feel I enjoy it more. Who knows what life has in store. Maybe I find that while I love my time in Europe, I really was always looking for something else. Perhaps I am so wrong about everything. Perhaps I'm just a crazy teenager who just finished high school and wants to go into the world, on his own like a bull. Maybe all this is true. But how would I know that unless I go and experience it? This way, I am not just continuing my education, I am continuing my understanding of myself. It's so scary how the main theme I wrote about this year in all my English papers: Search for Universality, fits my life like a glove. Although I don't actually believe that it can be found, I might come closer to finding new explanations. New explanations that can broaden my contextual box (excuse my TOK). After all, I have nothing to lose. Either I continue to be in the same situation as I am in over here or I have everything to gain. I feel that to be able to feel comfortable and content about my future, I need to make sure I eliminate all regrets. Because if I didn't leave right now, when I still have a chance to, I might regret it later. I refuse to live a life with regrets.